4 years ago my life changed; from good to bad to worse to okay. For those of you who have been following my blog, thank you. It has evolved from Reiki guidance to unraveling my deepest sadness while using Reiki as a tool to help me process and grieve the loss of my first born, my son, Lolo. The sadness that comes with losing a baby, the word doesn’t begin to describe it. No one knows how you feel, not even another loss parent because each journey is its own. Yes, there are similarities, but there are differences. And now I’m 4 years from the moment I laid my eyes on him. From the moment I held him, felt him move inside me, saw his warm face. But marking this calendar moment at 4 years does not mean anything. I still can recall the exact events in full detail, just like it was yesterday. The pain is not as heart-wrenching for long periods of time; it just comes and goes now. But that’s because we’ve added two more little sisters to our family; we made Lolo a big brother. And we’re learning to intertwine our lives with the loss of Lolo, because he is around spiritually, guiding us, playing with us, loving us from abound. We’re teaching our girls that although we can’t see him, he is there.
And that is what Reiki has also taught me. That even though we can’t see the energy, the love is there waiting for us when we are ready.
Tomorrow, Saturday, March 10, 2012, my Reiki group will be offering free Reiki treatments to those who would like to try receiving it. It is located in Bellingham, WA at the Unity Church. The doors open from 1:00 pm, and close at 5:00 pm. You can drop in any time to receive Reiki. Come by yourself or with others. The least you will feel is relaxed……
This morning I decided to create my first post on this blogsite. I created this site a few weeks ago, but haven’t started between work, my other job, Scrapbook Stories, and planning Christmas.
So, my first post is similar to a post I sent to my friends and family on Christmas Eve;
Can you think of 5 things you were blessed with….today? Do this everyday and you’ll realize the little things that make your day better. My five? Hmmmmm; 1) filling my house with family, 2) the ability to provide a meal for them, 2) down time with my husband, 3) talking with my mom and dad because we won’t be seeing them on Christmas, 4) time with great friends Beau and Oly, and 5) a great husband who took care of the cooking while I anxiously finished a scrapbook gift. Oh wait, that’s six…nice!!!
The concept of counting at least 5 blessings you had per day is something that I learned several years ago from a massage/Reiki practioner at Bellingham Body Works in Bellingham, Washington. What I learned and frequently practice is, before you go to sleep every night, write down or think about 5 blessings that occurred during your day…even the little things. For example, a great conversation you had with a co-worker that you hadn’t had before, or a great brew of coffee that was perfectly strong and sweet, or the satisfaction of knowing you took time for yourself to think about those 5 things.
Give it a try and see how more productive and happy you are about your life. Your life is better than you thought it was…it always was- you just weren’t recognizing it. Thank you for taking time to read my post.
Love and Positive Energy on this Christmas Day,