4 years ago my life changed; from good to bad to worse to okay. For those of you who have been following my blog, thank you. It has evolved from Reiki guidance to unraveling my deepest sadness while using Reiki as a tool to help me process and grieve the loss of my first born, my son, Lolo. The sadness that comes with losing a baby, the word doesn’t begin to describe it. No one knows how you feel, not even another loss parent because each journey is its own. Yes, there are similarities, but there are differences. And now I’m 4 years from the moment I laid my eyes on him. From the moment I held him, felt him move inside me, saw his warm face. But marking this calendar moment at 4 years does not mean anything. I still can recall the exact events in full detail, just like it was yesterday. The pain is not as heart-wrenching for long periods of time; it just comes and goes now. But that’s because we’ve added two more little sisters to our family; we made Lolo a big brother. And we’re learning to intertwine our lives with the loss of Lolo, because he is around spiritually, guiding us, playing with us, loving us from abound. We’re teaching our girls that although we can’t see him, he is there.
And that is what Reiki has also taught me. That even though we can’t see the energy, the love is there waiting for us when we are ready.
I recently moved from a place I called home for 12 years. The move forced me to learn about myself; how I manage, what I don’t need, and what I love. I am a member of Reiki group that gets together twice a month to practice. It was one way I was able to give others Reiki; and with this group as an integral part of my life, I knew I needed to find a similar group when I moved.
After two months away and not finding a new group, I was in need of going back. I decided to return for one of our regular public Reiki offerings. Although I still give myself weekly treatments, Reiki feels different when someone else is cleansing your soul, caring for you, and ridding you of toxins.
But what is more are the feelings I have when I treat others. After being away, my mind was afraid that I was out of practice and my senses would be muddy. But my faith knew there was no reason to question my ability–and it was right. From the moment I set my intention to treat my first recipient, vibrant energy surged through my entire body. My thinking was clear and my ears were ringing. An overwhelming thought came to my mind…why on Earth would I want to wander away from this? I am great at it, yet it makes me humble; it rings true to my soul; and, it is powerfully peaceful.
To top it off, I feel so honored and blessed when the receiver looks to me and says with astonishment, “Thank you, that felt amazing!” To me, I value making others feel comfortable and at ease. So, when I hear this my heart pours over with love because I know I helped the stress of their world diminish.
I am meant to share Reiki, whether it be paid or voluntary. Although everyone has the ability to learn it, not all do. If others just want to receive, then let me be the one to share it. Although not all may feel as strongly as I do, that is okay. This is one of my passions; and this is why I maintain this blog–to teach and to share. I am here if you want to experience it.
Tomorrow, Saturday, March 10, 2012, my Reiki group will be offering free Reiki treatments to those who would like to try receiving it. It is located in Bellingham, WA at the Unity Church. The doors open from 1:00 pm, and close at 5:00 pm. You can drop in any time to receive Reiki. Come by yourself or with others. The least you will feel is relaxed……