I was taught that God is a glorious, righteous being. And I grew up believing that God doesn’t experience the same emotions that we humans do; like anger, fear, sadness, or jealously. Now whether this is accurate or not, I am not sure; but it was with this belief that made me not understand why people would say to me, “God is gracious,” when they found out my son was stillborn. I thought, he doesn’t empathize with my sadness, my broken heart, or my pain. How could this action be an act of grace?!!
But then I recently read a post that started to break down my ignorant and childhood belief, yet revealed more clarity and truth in my understanding of God. This post was from another mother of a stillborn. She wrote that God knows the same sadness as she does, because he unselfishly chose his Son to be born on Earth to heal and save us.
And in reading those words, John 3:16 had a new meaning to me. I realized that God didn’t get to raise his Son, Jesus, like other parents did. He sacrificed this closeness because he knew his Son was going to do great, unsurmountable things on Earth. He loved Jesus from a distance; and Jesus knew his father loved him, even if they were apart. With this sacrifice, God must have ached and felt emotions just like I do.
And that is my new Christmas perspective this year. Christmas is now a day that I connect my husband and my sacrifice. We believe our son, Lolo, is doing amazing and wonderful things wherever his spirit soars. Despite that we are not all physically here on Earth, I know Lolo loves us, and that he knows his daddy and mama love him.
As you spend this Christmas however you do, please remember that Christmas is the day we celebrate Baby Jesus’ birth. We celebrate the sacrifice God made so that we can be saved, forgiven, and healed here on Earth. Although it may be difficult to believe this, if you look at the details, you may find little revelations in your life, too.