…learning to love him spiritually.

I have mentioned that Reiki is helping me in a variety of ways since my son was stillborn.  And there are many topics I could write about.  I recovered from surgery faster than what nurses normally saw.  I was promptly walking around the hospital after major abdominal surgery.  I opted out of morphine.  My c-section scar healed beautifully without excess inflammation.  (I also attribute that to my surgeons and their expertise.)  Also, I weaned myself off pain medications while half of the prescription went unused.

Aside from the physical improvements, one of the deepest changes Reiki showed me was instead of loving my son physically, I was learning to love him spiritually.

Reiki has the innate ability to guide you towards your true self and your spirituality.  As you do this, you begin to open yourself up to awesome things.  I’ve always believed there’s a spirit that lives in everything.  From what we can see, such as the trees to the stars to the moon; to what we cannot see, such as the wind.  They all have a spiritual energy within them; it’s the power of Mother Nature.  We can’t see it, but we can feel its energy.

Although it will always be difficult to not have my son physically in my arms, I feel his presence everyday.  I feel him when a side of my body gets tingly, when my head feels sparkly, when a particular leaf falls to the ground directly in front of me and stops me in my path, when the stoplight turns green as I ask him to get me to work on time, and when a song I sang to him plays on the radio at the exact moment I miss him.  He is here listening and answering back.  He is here with his dad and I.

These are all confirmations that he is around, I just can’t see him.  It is difficult to accept these instead of his embrace, arms around my neck, or a kiss on the cheek.  But I’ll take what I am given; and thank Reiki for teaching me how to listen.

If you’re missing your loved one, please know they are with you.  By reading this, you are already opening yourself up.  Now, begin noticing the little confirmations.  Those little things that pop up during your day that you think are “out of nowhere”.  Those are it!  You just have to be open to the thought.

~Christine Markowski, Usui/Holy Fire II Karuna ® Reiki Master

 

 

…with the gift of grace.

Postpartum and depressed feelings; call it what you will.  I was sad, depressed, and gave myself the grace to embrace these characteristics because I wasn’t tending to my son like I imagined I was going to be.  I gave myself grace to sleep, cry, and remain in the same clothes for days.  Grace for days instilled in my heart.

No longer was I to dream about it; die from it, escape from it, near to it.

Grace.  For the love of it, for the love of myself.  Let my soul sleep, remain in peace in the quiet in the stillness until I am ready to come out again.  And now, here I am.  Grace, a moment of grace, a moment of time to give yourself.  Grace, a moment of time to give yourself grief, a break.

 

Dedicated to my son, my soul, and my fellow mamas and daddys who need more grace.

~Christine Markowski, Usui/Holy Fire II Karuna ® Reiki Master

…I am meant to share this

Aside

 

I recently moved from a place I called home for 12 years.  The move forced me to learn about myself; how I manage, what I don’t need, and what I love.  I am a member of Reiki group that gets together twice a month to practice.  It was one way I was able to give others Reiki; and with this group as an integral part of my life, I knew I needed to find a similar group when I moved.

After two months away and not finding a new group, I was in need of going back.  I decided to return for one of our regular public Reiki offerings.  Although I still give myself weekly treatments, Reiki feels different when someone else is cleansing your soul, caring for you, and ridding you of toxins.

But what is more are the feelings I have when I treat others.  After being away, my mind was afraid that I was out of practice and my senses would be muddy.  But my faith knew there was no reason to question my ability–and it was right.  From the moment I set my intention to treat my first recipient, vibrant energy surged through my entire body.  My thinking was clear and my ears were ringing.  An overwhelming thought came to my mind…why on Earth would I want to wander away from this?  I am great at it, yet it makes me humble; it rings true to my soul; and, it is powerfully peaceful.

To top it off, I feel so honored and blessed when the receiver looks to me and says with astonishment, “Thank you, that felt amazing!”  To me, I value making others feel comfortable and at ease.  So, when I hear this my heart pours over with love because I know I helped the stress of their world diminish.

I am meant to share Reiki, whether it be paid or voluntary.  Although everyone has the ability to learn it, not all do.  If others just want to receive, then let me be the one to share it.  Although not all may feel as strongly as I do, that is okay.  This is one of my passions; and this is why I maintain this blog–to teach and to share.  I am here if you want to experience it.

~Christine

 

…my group shares Reiki to the Public

A Reiki receiver lying on a massage table surrounded by practitioners; image from reikiranch.com

Every second Saturday of the month, I am blessed to belong to a Reiki group that opens its doors to the Public.  On this day, anyone is welcome to come through the doors, lie on a massage table, and receive Reiki.

It is located at the Unity Church, off Telegraph Road, in Bellingham, WA.  You may drop-in between 1 pm and 5 pm.  Each session lasts approximately 20 minutes.

Cost is Free….but we do like to receive donations so that we can keep offering this service.  If you are at all interested, curious, or have questions about Reiki, or want to watch Reiki treatments before receiving, please come.

There is nothing but acceptance and love that fills the room.  Come and try it, the least you’ll feel is relaxed and rested.

~Christine